Spring has Sprung

So where does the time go? I feel like it has been flying by me. I am so enjoying my little Hannah and getting so excited for our new Baby BOY to come this summer. We have been keeping busy so here is a little bit of what we have been up to.Playing at the Lake with Daddy. We had some really good weather a couple weekends ago, recently it has been raining and cold. I am looking forward to the change of seasons. I do really enjoy the rain, but I have found that I really do enjoy change. The warmer weather will be nice so we can do more outdoors again.
We went to a birthday party a couple of weekends ago. It was cowgirl themed and they had pony rides. So Hannah had her first Pony ride, as you can tell it didn't go so well. She was fine until they strapped her in.

She loves to do things just like mommy. Like wear my glasses or pretend to work. Her little personality has really bloomed the last couple of weeks. She really does love to pretend. She will pretend to pour a cup of water and drink it, or talk on the phone, or play with her babies. She is still babbling not much in the talking department, but don't let her fool you she does understand just about everything.
We went to the park the other day. In between the rain I took the opportunity to get out of the house and let her burn off some energy. I can't wait to have this next one, our little family will just have more fun as we become more complete.

All in a Day

Emotions. Yesterday I had about the most emotional day I have had in a very long time. A very dear friend of my lost her unborn child. It is so hard to think of the pain and the suffering of carrying a child for 5 months and not get to keep her. Baby Abigail went to be with the Lord yesterday. Baby Abigail had very server under heart developments, my friend was strongly urged to terminate the pregnancy. Yesterday she went in and did just that. It is just so beyond me that a Dr can even give you the choice to do that. Being pregnant myself, my heart just hurts for the loss of my friend and Baby Abigail. I know that she is now made whole with Jesus rejoicing in heaven with my unborn babies. But the pain is still there. I prayed and prayed that Jesus would heal her little heart. And that the Dr's would see something different.

It began to challenge my faith. Why did God not answer? I know he could. I know that he could heal her and bring her parents to Jesus. I know that she was not conceived without purpose. But Why?

Last weeks service that Ryan did was so appointed by God, especially for me. He spoke on disappointment, and that God does not disappoint. He cannot miss an appointment. That in the path of life, we have to chose to stay on course, to pick ourselves up and keep on going. That is exactly how I feel right now. I have to just keep on going. I know that God did not miss an appointment with Baby Abigail, he just welcomed her home.

My day had started off good. I went for an amazing walk with my dear friend Cori. It was just beautiful going on the trail behind her house, and the conversation too, amazing. Then the day just started to go downhill, I took Hannah back to the Dr to see if her bladder infection had cleared, and the Dr found a bad ear infection. We were there for over an hour waiting for Hannah to pee in the bag. Finally we came home and ate lunch, Hannah and I took a quick nap then it was back to Work and to get her prescription filled. On our way out of the parking lot, my car died. In the middle of the street, at a light. And I cried. Jacob came and got me and Hannah and my work sent a tow truck.

The the stuff of the day really took my eyes off the Lord. It made me a wreck and let all the emotions of me take over. Was it really terrible that the car broke down....no. Or that sweet Baby Abigail went home with the Lord, yet painful she was still purposed. After all, isn't being home with the Lord our HOPE. I pray that today my focus would be on that HOPE. He has a purpose, he has a plan, he does redeem.

Cool and Crisp

I love the day after a big rain. I took out the trash this morning, when I opened the door I was smacked in the face by the cool crisp clean air. It was great. I looked at our local mountains and they have snow on them. What a great way to start the day. I have been inside so much lately due to Hannah still being sick. Poor kid just can't kick this runny nose and cough so we will be home yet another Sunday. I so miss church, and the fellowship. Normally Jacob and I would take turns, I would go to one service and he would go to another, but he is playing on worship team so he has to be at both services.

We have been trying to make the most of Hannah being sick. Her body and mind doesn't think she is sick, she just wants to play all day long. I know it is just a cold, thank God, but I don't want it to turn into anything serious. So we have been playing indoors and going for walks in the stroller, at least she gets to be out and not infect anybody else.

I feel like I have turned a corner in my walk this last week. I have been so consumed with being inside I was very discontent. I was thinking, If only we had a bigger place, or a house, then it wouldn't be so bad being at home, since even when Hannah is feeling well, I still work from home and am home most of the day. I started to pray about it, God is this really where you want us, don't you want us in a house with a yard? I have been reading in Genesis (still, I know) about Sarah and Abraham, seeing how many times God has moved them and blessed them, seems like where ever they went God gave them more and more. I started to pray, ok so maybe if we more then God will bless us with more. But after a couple days of no answer and talking it over with Jacob, I think God gave us his answer, I put you HERE, in RSM. I began to thank God for all that he has given to us and was overwhelmed by how a little foothold of discontent shifted my entire view of what God has already given us. I feel so safe just going for a walk to the park with just me and Hannah, or walking the lake, or beach club, or enjoying the pool. Plus all the amazing friends that God has placed in my life. I really can't ask for more. It may be hard getting stuck in my lil routines but they are only what I make of them. Having a thankful heart is so much greater than a heart of discontentment.

Just goes to show, after a storm there is always the cool and crisp clean air of a new day. A new beginning a new attitude. Amazing what a simple task like taking out the trash can do for the day. Blessings!

Cravings

It is so weird being pregnant. The first 12 weeks I could barely eat, but now..... let the cravings begin. Here is some of the stuff that the baby wants.....

1. Fresh Fruit

2. Ice Cold Fresh Lemonade.... so thankful for the lemonade guy at the farmers market, I look forward to it every week

3. Shelled Peanuts.... so good ( i am eating them right now)

4. Wahoos.... more specifically bajalattas- with green sauce

5. Chocolate Milk- the powder kind

6. Waffles- I still haven't had one yet.... maybe this weekend.

I can't wait to see what else this little one wants. It is so much fun filling these cravings too. It is so nice not being sick any more....YAY!

Taking it S....L....O....W

I really want to get back into the word this year. I want to really make it a priority and give God the first of my time. But being a Mommy, working, being pregnant and a wife doesn't always work with me, more like against me. But I did, I started in the Old Testament and instead of following a big plan, I decided to start at the beginning and take it slow. There has been so much that I have read over and just missed or forgot over the years. This last week or so I have been reading about Noah. And I am just blown away by the love of our God. I have learned a lot too, fun fact, did you know that Noah took 7 of every clean animal and only 2 of every unclean animal...... that is a lot of animals. I also love that God's covenant with us is something we can still see today after the rain, the Rainbow.

But the part of the story that really spoke to me was that even though Noah walked with God, and was used by God in such a big way, and found favor by God; Noah was still human. Noah still sinned and got drunk and passed out. I sometimes can find myself beating myself up that I am not perfect, or that I have to live in this little bubble of Christians, but the truth is that God came to seek and save the sinners, the lost.

I guess it kinda gives me a lot to think about, who am I seeking after? I don't have to be perfect, and God will use me despite my own hangups about myself. But I am so glad to be taking it SLOW, I am really gaining so much more than if I was reading to just check a box or to say that I did.

Fun Fun Fun

This last week Hannah and I have been inside.... A LOT. I have been so extremely tired and not feeling the greatest, aside from me suppose to be on "rest". I have been feeling kinda bad that she has not had a play date and we haven't gone to the park in I don't know when. So I decided to let her have some fun. I finished a report for work and then let her have it. And she had a blast.

After that she thought she would work like mommy does. She snuck up to my work computer while I was brushing my teeth, and started working. As soon I came out and said Hannah, she bolted, she knew she wasn't suppose to be playing up there. But it was too cute not to have taken a picture and to enjoy the fact that she wants to be like me.

I love those puckered lips.

We also went on our first camping trip with Hannah. With all the fears and worries about weather and noise and Hannah, it was Great! Despite a friend getting hurt :( but the trip was overall a success and I can't wait until we can go again.

Hannah kept Mom busy, she walked her.

Oh and the Dirt this girl ate.... minerals right? :/

She stayed bundled up at night.

We enjoyed all Hannah's meals inside Jim and Chela's trailer, it was nice to have her sit at a table. Thanks guys!

Daddy kept busy, taking care of Hannah and hitting the dirt. This boy needs to get out more often, he really missed it.

Seriously she was so happy the whole time we were out there.

Bedhead. She did great for being in a tent. I feel like Why did we wait so long. Everything was great, she is a natural born camper. I can't wait to plan our next trip.

2011.... 11 days in

11 days into the year, and I must say, I really have not done ANYTHING! I feel like such a bum, but that is ok. I continue to forget that I am pregnant so at least the days that I feel so lazy, there is a little room for grace.

I have really been enjoying my time with Hannah, she just cracks me up.

She walked around with the basket on her head forever. I love that she doesn't need "toys" to have a good time.

We got up early to watch Daddy play football with the church.

He got a little booboo :(

The best part of the year was to spend time with Great Friends! I love them so much. It has taken a little while to get past the pain of just missing Lauren and Karli in our daily life, but to see how much they are being grown and stretched in AZ in amazing.

I have had the privilege to meet with a couple of great women for a Bible study/ Prayer group over the last couple of weeks, and man the Lord has blessed my socks off by them. I am so excited for the season that the Lord is bringing me into. I am not out doing a lot of great works, or going through a huge life changing events, but just being here, doing the mom thing everyday. But to have such great support of veteran mommies that have been there and done that is so amazing. I pray that the Lord will give me wisdom and strength for everyday, and He has! I truly love being a Mommy and knowing that I get pour into Hannah's life, and that this really is the season and time that the Lord has ordained for me to be in really feels like a privilege. We are going to attempt our first camping trip this weekend with Hannah, so wish us luck!