Whoa Baby........... a lot can happen in six months. The biggest news is the expectancy of our first child. I could not believe how fast it has gone already. We find out the sex of our baby is just 20 days. It has been such a roller coaster ride of emotions. I have always wanted to be a mommy, and have always loved babies. I am so excited to finally have a child myself. Although pregnancy is not what I had always thought it would be. From the everyday, all day morning sickness, to the mood swings, and swollen feet. It is not quite the walk in a park I had thought it was. But hearing the little heart beat is so sweet. And I know it'll be well worth it, when I get to meet my baby face to face.

What has God been up too........ well he has been quite busy in my life. It always seems that in the times of chaos and business he is there and working more than I know it. I am still a little fuzzy on the direction of my life to go. But knowing that he is in control gives me such peace. To know that I don't have to wait to see what my ministry is, but just to look around me and see that people that he puts in my life to minister to, is so amazing. It amazes me even more when I think I am going to be the doing the ministering and he uses that person to minster to me. I cannot even being to explain how faithful God has been. He is walked me through some very scary moments in my fears of this pregnancy to giving me peace on the preparations he is doing on making me a mommy. As much as this baby is growing inside of me, God is doing lots of growing on me too.

Jacob..... the love of my life. It is five years this year. I cannot believe that in less than a month we have been married for five years. It has been the best ride of my life. I know God truly matched us together. I was telling him the other night, I am so happy that we met at such a young age because we have such a history together. It would make me so sad if we didn't meet until now. But God knew. I am so proud of the man that he is. He has such a servants heart. He took a couple of classes at a bible school, and has really began to stir up some new passions in his heart. I know that he dreams big, and serves an even bigger God who can make those dreams come true. I am so excited to share this crazy adventure of my life with him.

Me....... I am so just rested in the Lord. I am excited and a little scared of the next chapter of our lives. We have a baby on the way. Are going to start hosting a small group. And have had some major changes go on at work. Money is always a factor, in that there never seems to be enough. But I know that I don't have to go through any of this alone. I have such a wonderful husband, family and church family, but most importantly I know that God will be there with me. In all of this I have such a peace.

I guess we will just see what the next six months hold for us. Hopefully I will get better at keeping up with the blog too. :)

Secrets of my Soul

So I have discovered that I am not much for posting pictures on this. I get to frustrated then I think I will have time to do it later and give up altogether. Well I cannot believe that it is already 2009. Every day seems to just go by faster and faster, as the world around me just becomes busier and busier. It is kinda funny to me because of the business that I am in, it has been the slowest ever, at least since I have been doing it, and everybody still needs everything done yesterday. I have really been challenged to stop and just take in the moment. To take that extra minute to just look at the mountains or listen to the birds. Sometimes I feel like I am in a movie and I am moving in slow motion and everything around me is going 100 miles an hour.



Our time here is so short. I don't want to waste one moment. I don't want to live with regrets.



I really have been just taking so much in. I feel like such a sponge. God's word has become so real, so tangiable. I was reading in Ester, and that book said it best, For such a time is this. I realize that I don't want to waste any more time, living for me. I want to see the glory of GOD around me. I want to do his will where ever I am. I am seeking after him and he is filling my cup. His love is so perfect. He is love.



I feel like I am entering into a new chapter in my life, and I can't really see the title of the Chapter, but the last one left me haning onto every word, and I can't wait to turn the page to see what is next. I am kinda scraed, it might take me out of my comfort zone. I love Change, but it isn't always easy.



I have such deep desires. Longing. Things I want to go. I desire to me a mother, I long for it. I have never wanted somthing so much in my life. I was given such an amazing husband at such a young age. I feel so Blessed. I have so many great memories. He is my bestest friend. And we have overcome so much. We have faught for God to be the center of our marrage. The rock that we stand on and hold onto. I have come to a point in my life of surrender, surrender what I want most. And hold onto what I know, God's word. His love, and Truth. His will and purpose for my life is so much more than I could ever understand.



I pray that he will hold me. And carry me. Walk with me. I love the verse of song "take my heart and seal it". That is my prayer. I pray that I would stay in this moment forever. This moment of surrender, not my will be done but yours. So I wait and I pray.